A Crush on Velvet | Yasmeen Ghauri by Marc Hispard
"I love Queen B! At the minute I’m always listening to ‘Partition’ and ‘Mine’ (which features Drake)."
Neelam wears red embroidered dress and red leather sandals by Givenchy by Ricardo Tisci
Photography by Liam Warwick
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i wonder if by now i would have thought fluently in hindi. i wonder if i would have been able, by now, to speak bhagalpuri and if i would have been able to get that mutton recipe from you or make chai the proper way. the proper way meaning someone qualified would have been able to say too much of that and too little of this and would have slapped me for doing things wrong and praised me for the right things and i wonder if i should cry more.
That zora neale hurston quote, “there are years that ask questions and years that answer” has been swirling around in my head all day today. It’s been seven years on the dot since I last saw you. Saw you wrapped up carefully. You weren’t tall, you weren’t talking. You weren’t smoking Navy Cuts and you weren’t in your khaki Dockers pants and you weren’t twirling a toothpick in your mouth and you weren’t laughing so hard you were coughing up a lung. You were gone, and while that was the farthest thing from okay then, somehow it is now. Seven years has changed me, as much as I doubt that on any other day. There are years that make you wallow and feel sorry for yourself and shake your fists in the air, that make you collapse on cold tile floors drunk with pain and question what will never be answered and things that can never be told. then there’s years that make you realize this is it. This is how it goes and moving on isn’t bad it’s necessary, required. Good, even. And while I knew you enough to know that you didn’t want your light to go out, I know that you knew it wouldn’t. I remember you and you know I always will. you were my favorite and I was yours. Miss ya Dad.
— Zora Neale Hurston (via rippedoutpagesofmymind)